Back home

That's right!
Home sweet home~ too many things to do yet too little time ahead. i've listed few things that i have to do during this 3-month break. and the act of not being able to complete it is suicidal :P
1-Hair choPping- probably going for layered n fringe
2- shoPping
#Hard dIsc
#EyefraMe
#ClothEs & BAgs
#Shoes
# More..MOre...morE
3- Mamak StaLL(breakfast, lunch, dinner... EVERYDAY)
4-BaLIk kAmpong
5-Internship(purgh! not looking forward for this)
6-Girls night in & day out with fellow lil' cousins
7-Pet Cammp(WHen??)

Britney & annie

Hey! how many of u guys love Britney Spears?*mmm-room of silence-mm* I DO!
I love britney since forever she appears on the media!! She is probably cracked up at the top list of hall of shame right now but she got all the good reasons for that. and i still love her!
u guys have probably seen the worst side of britney lately- divorce, going bald, no undies, lame performance on MTV, poor parenting, mother issue, drink and drive.. etc. yeah i know the list seems to go on.. but everyone has their 'down' moment rite? and hers just happened to be CONTINUOUS
The recent story about britney is she had just lost 50-50 custody rights of her 2 sons and instead of commiserating her loss she continued party her way round LA. Hours after the court denied her request of joint custody of her 2 sons Sean Preston & Jayden James she was caught boozing, stripping and lap-dancing with her former assistant's ex. Before u start judging her, let me tell u one thing.. crying is not the best solution to any problems and taking problems too seriously is just a waste of time.. sometimes u just have to chill out, share it with friends and take it from there. Britney has proved to us she took different measure. having fun times with friends do heal some sorrow and loneliness inside.
In the recent NW cover page, u'll notice britney in a super-slutty-pink tiger costume. i cant deny that she looks awful in that shit. but deep down i know she wore it because she wanted to feel sexy and wanted again just like how it was before she was married to that stupid dick! plus i read this from an ariticle in NW
"That's one of the reason she's gone so sex crazy-wearing no knickers, wanting to be a stripper and hitting on random men and women in nightclubs-all because her mom told her that sex was for 'bad girls'."
She's a rebellious child. Even in the supernanny, they have made it all clear in each show that parents should not use the word 'NO' too often around their children, cause they will tend to do what they are restricted from.
i think me & britney share the same thing. i'm a rebellious child too. i have my story which i rather not sharing in this blog but i learned from it and never regret. i guess sooner or later Britney will rise again and realise wot she did was really childish. Hey whats life without some adventures? Displaying ur p*ssy in public is indeed one! :P

Dont playing games w my heart~

Dear Naguleswaran,
i sat for your final exam this morning. IT was ridiculous! I didnt know u are capable of making my life completely miserable & f*cked up! Remember wot u said in class, "There's more to life than studying..". i actually took that shit! i thought the exam will be as easy as last year's. but u really f*cking mess up with my life man..
U should give it a break.. 223 was our(mechanical engineering students) last paper..it was supposed to be a good happy ending :(( . u are no good friend man..
Quit playing games with my heart.
sincerely,
dead.

Exam finished. Holidays await. time is no longer timeless..

after the exam finished, i went to the mall.. bought manicure and pedicure set, window shopping again (since i've already spent 100 bux on dresses a couple of days ago) and get retarded! it was already asar when we got back. Then headed out with few of my engineering pals.. lepak2. talking stuffs other than academic. there was a topic took me by surprise, these guys actually admit they rather prefer curvy chick than sad skinny ones. i knew that but i've never actually seen a guy confessed it out loud. so for chicks out there.... get ur self tons of fats and bring THE SEXY BACK!
Afterwards, they dropped me off at Q's place. Q cook nasi ayam and invite few frens down but i was too full with the meal i had before, cudn't b bothered with the chicken rice. i'm sure it's tasty but my tummy already started growling- which is scary :P
then around 9 hanisa, me and che ah played monopoly game. i never had so much playing monopoly for ages. it used to be kinda stressful and boring. however, last night we played till 4.30 am!! laughters were all we had. i also learned a few tips on winning monopoly;
1. if ur frens have started building houses and hotels, GO TO JAIL. the outside atmosphere is not safe for u anymore.
2. Get the utilities! it's so damn useful!
3. When your frens started to talk how little money they have, it means they are f*cking rich. reverse psycology.

Thats about it. the hours after the final paper...

Jealousy kills

migraine, migraine.. go away
come again another day
Little annie has paper this monday....
migraine, migraine..little annie doesn't wish to see u again!

my migraine just got worst. it'd been 4 hours today. Hope i didnt screw the math exam i sat while having it :(. My family was a bit surprised when i was diagnosed with migraine aura 2 years ago. the difference between migraine aura and other types of migraine is that it actually affects the vision and could make one goes partially blind for awhile. it wasn't too bad. when i first got the migraine, i actually thought that i would go blind.. so i sat at one corner, crying while hugging myself..swallowing the pain & pray to god. once it disappeared, i ran out of the room and appreciate my valuable senses.........................then everything back to normal again. :P

i have to study 4 my last paper but i'm not in the mood. i dont understand why ppl keep misinterpreting my actions! they think i'm that jealous-type girl who dont trust her boyfriend & want him for herself!! urgh! i'm so tired facing this same accusation everyday!! like the other day i txtd mr J asking him for help. i'm a magz junky- i will either read them completely at the book store or buy them! since, i havent been out for quite awhile due to examination week, i just need to get my hand on the magazine that was issued on that particular week. i cant miss an issue, otherwise i'll lost! so i askd mrJ to look up for me the magz title coz i dint know if the new issues are already out or not... plus i heard it's about britney(again..) and i just got to have it in my collection! so, u know when u ask for help from sumbdy who u hardly talk to.... u just need to intrigue them with normal conversation so that it wont look rude. it's called courtesy in cnversation... for example
"hi.. boleh tolong i amikkan my dry cleaning tak? oh btw... u look so hot in tht outfit, where did u buy it?" <--this last bit is called COURTESY!!
so, after askd 4 help i slipped my best courtesy line 'balik lewat..byk duit menang bjudi smalam? hehe' AND he misinterpreted it as if i was interrogating him wot my bf was doing last night!!

other similar case is when ppl thought i was jealous when my bf hang-out with a girl. for millions time i don't n i won't. i was pissed off because i heard different stories about them from different ppl n plus i have this hatred thing with 'mengada girl'. this hatred comes from my principle of girl shud be strong not ngada. all girls tend to be ngada (even me) because got creates us with charms that can win our way through society without creating any competition. but wudnt it be better if we win or get to the top because of our brain & courage?? *well, it's not a crime to use the charms sometimes :P* plus i have no reason to be jealous- i look good at 49kg & 161 cm, smart enough to compete in engineering field under pet, happy with friends- boys & girls, and i'm nice(kan? kan?...*hehe*). Furthermore, jodoh di tangan tuhan.. kalo jadi, jadi lah...(thnx bulan 4 making me realise this)

Those who really know me know that i'm jealous only when it comes to
1. MONEY
2. KNOWLEDGE-including exam marks! (ppl used to call me lokek ilmu. wahaha)


the reason i got myself into SBP because of money. i found out my brother received more pocket money than i do when he entered SEMASHUR. which pisssed me off! i went berserk, calling him names (jealous kan?? nak buat macam maner?).. haih~. and there was once, my fren 'Cik C' was supposed to get marks higher than me.. after i found out.. i hid her paper tak nak bg dier tmbah mrkah. :))

freedom

i spared 2 years seeking for 1
when there's a way, i shut
the reason being
i'm not ready 2 be out on my own

but when it suffocates u
once so many times
the road to freedom turned on its light
to guide u away and away and away.
from the misery
u kept inside.

once again i didnt take the road
i have faith on wot i'm doing
but faith doesnt seem to agree
now it's time to be free

Just feel like writing :)

This is a story about a damn bitch
back-stabbing is her profession
'i am a bitch' reflects on her complexion
she listens, she sees & she manipulates
i guess the world around her built with hates
spreading bad words about people is what she good at
to my surprise, she never regrets
not now, not yet..
people trust her with their lives
after all, she does look like an innocent child
personal stories are shared
and the next day, they are spread!
Sometimes she told lies to make herself looks good
it hurts others but she's too ignorant
and too rude.

living life in a lonely world
that is why she becomes a bitchy girl..
(there is nothing in this world that gives us the right to judge or to critic about others. we are human and every single one of us has problems. look in the mirror and see your flaws before u shit about others and think u r better than them all! i dnt judge sum1 until tht sum1 mess w me.)

ugly stress

Yes! the word for today is stress a.k.a Mr what-the-f*ck!
who would thought the emth271 paper would turn it's back on us this freaking morning??!
The easy-peesy past year paper had clearly under gone a make-over and been reconstructed into an ugly piece of s#it!! Too many problems & too little time.. what on earth does J.Hannah thinks?
We are not some mechanical robots or matlab programs to solve those Qs in 2-short hours!
Clearly, he has no sympathy towards his 'victims'! yes engineering people..we were victimised by mathematician! face it!

As the test began, i tried to attempt the Q by order. proceed to next Q after the 1st Q has been completed. During the test, Mr. T(tomen) sat infront of me . He made me sworn under my breath the whole time.. as he kept flipping the exam papers forward and backward restlessly. i noticed it took him awhile before he settled down. i told myself 'this is bad. really bad'. i couldnt figure out the first Q in short time, what more the Qs that were waiting for me at the back... DANG!

Everyone was a bit reluctant to smile after that paper *shrug* i understand why...

Right after the test, we headed up to ric mall. planned on killing some unuseful time & accomplished it. i ended up buying a dress from espirit & ms b(bulan) bought us drinks (thanks!! muah~!!). and mr FD(fashion disaster) who suffers from fashion disorder couldnt decide on a new jacket that he supposed to buy (his mission.. as told) & that could make his life flourishing with admirations from public. he needs a serious help on his wardrobe problem :P

p/s: i baked brownies 2nite. its yummy~ oh forgot to mention mr HAW(Hutang Anne Wedges) and ms P(pa-in) pon baked choc cake. tapi brwnies habis dulu. haha