Jealousy kills

migraine, migraine.. go away
come again another day
Little annie has paper this monday....
migraine, migraine..little annie doesn't wish to see u again!

my migraine just got worst. it'd been 4 hours today. Hope i didnt screw the math exam i sat while having it :(. My family was a bit surprised when i was diagnosed with migraine aura 2 years ago. the difference between migraine aura and other types of migraine is that it actually affects the vision and could make one goes partially blind for awhile. it wasn't too bad. when i first got the migraine, i actually thought that i would go blind.. so i sat at one corner, crying while hugging myself..swallowing the pain & pray to god. once it disappeared, i ran out of the room and appreciate my valuable senses.........................then everything back to normal again. :P

i have to study 4 my last paper but i'm not in the mood. i dont understand why ppl keep misinterpreting my actions! they think i'm that jealous-type girl who dont trust her boyfriend & want him for herself!! urgh! i'm so tired facing this same accusation everyday!! like the other day i txtd mr J asking him for help. i'm a magz junky- i will either read them completely at the book store or buy them! since, i havent been out for quite awhile due to examination week, i just need to get my hand on the magazine that was issued on that particular week. i cant miss an issue, otherwise i'll lost! so i askd mrJ to look up for me the magz title coz i dint know if the new issues are already out or not... plus i heard it's about britney(again..) and i just got to have it in my collection! so, u know when u ask for help from sumbdy who u hardly talk to.... u just need to intrigue them with normal conversation so that it wont look rude. it's called courtesy in cnversation... for example
"hi.. boleh tolong i amikkan my dry cleaning tak? oh btw... u look so hot in tht outfit, where did u buy it?" <--this last bit is called COURTESY!!
so, after askd 4 help i slipped my best courtesy line 'balik lewat..byk duit menang bjudi smalam? hehe' AND he misinterpreted it as if i was interrogating him wot my bf was doing last night!!

other similar case is when ppl thought i was jealous when my bf hang-out with a girl. for millions time i don't n i won't. i was pissed off because i heard different stories about them from different ppl n plus i have this hatred thing with 'mengada girl'. this hatred comes from my principle of girl shud be strong not ngada. all girls tend to be ngada (even me) because got creates us with charms that can win our way through society without creating any competition. but wudnt it be better if we win or get to the top because of our brain & courage?? *well, it's not a crime to use the charms sometimes :P* plus i have no reason to be jealous- i look good at 49kg & 161 cm, smart enough to compete in engineering field under pet, happy with friends- boys & girls, and i'm nice(kan? kan?...*hehe*). Furthermore, jodoh di tangan tuhan.. kalo jadi, jadi lah...(thnx bulan 4 making me realise this)

Those who really know me know that i'm jealous only when it comes to
1. MONEY
2. KNOWLEDGE-including exam marks! (ppl used to call me lokek ilmu. wahaha)


the reason i got myself into SBP because of money. i found out my brother received more pocket money than i do when he entered SEMASHUR. which pisssed me off! i went berserk, calling him names (jealous kan?? nak buat macam maner?).. haih~. and there was once, my fren 'Cik C' was supposed to get marks higher than me.. after i found out.. i hid her paper tak nak bg dier tmbah mrkah. :))